i don't want to make this a big deal. i'm going to vent, but just a little... it'll only be a bitty breeze, not a 75mph wind. (well.. i'm going to try.)
I wasn't going to say anything. i was going to bottle it up, bitch & moan with my friend & leave it at that, but hi, i have a blog for a reason, right? i have all of you luvies that actually care about what i have to say & how i want to say it, so why not take my little bloggie & make it a soap box for a moment. with that said, i pose a question...
who the FUCK do people think they are?!
I mean, i understand that no-one is going to like everyone. I'm ok with that. I'd like to think that i'm a pretty open person that seems to enjoy the company of most other people. I also pride myself on (usually) being able to see life from their position and understand them before i judge or let them get to me... but some people make it AWFULLY HARD TO DO.
Many of you may know that when i'm not sitting on my bum watching amazing movies or day dreaming about being a super woman fashionista actress film maker badass queen of the world in the finest and most fabulous threads living life to the fullest exporing new worlds and being overall awesome, i'm a lowly Customer Service Representative for an online company. With this job comes a lot of responcibilities.
- make sure that all e-mails and voice-mails (v-mails) are answered in a timely and efficient manner.
- answer all questions in a polite and informative way.
- complete daily tasks that help the system work to the best of its abilities
- get yelled at by asshole performers who think that they're God gift.
- (most importantly) TAKE IT LIKE A MAN! (or in my case, a very tough little white girl.)
So here i am, in my tribicle (there are units of three that make a circle... no cubes, tribes... it makes sense, i promise) & i listen to this guy go on & on about how our system is wack. As far as he knows (i hope) i'm understanding and willing to assist him in anything i can & "happy to forward his suggestions to Upper Managment for further review and consideration" (funny how i can turn on the professionalism, eh?). What he doesn't see is my blood boiling in my veins and my hands trembling. I IM my gurl Amy in the tribicle next to me & say "sometimes i wish i had terets so that i could tell people to go fuck themselves." (sorry, i know that's totally un-PC... but it's how i felt. i don't mean to offend, i'm just speaking the truth jive.) What i want this person (& many others) to know, is that, i understand you're unhappy. i get that life isn't fair. i also totally undestand that you need to vent about it. you don't need to tell me that i'm "irrelevant" because the truth is, (to semi-quote Clueless) "as far as you're concerned, i'm the messiah" of this company. Grow up. The comlaint that you have really doesn't matter at all in the grand scheme of things.To make matters even worse... there are some other people in my life that just remind me how lucky i really am. When i'm in a "glass half empty" kinda mood, i might think that i'm so unlucky because i have to deal with these people all the time... but then... the clouds part, my eyes widen & i realize, i AM the lucky one. I don't let myself turn into an ugly monster because i don't like the way things are. I'm the one DEALING with these people who feel the need to bring others down. That makes me feel better. don't get me wrong, i do my fair share of complaining, but i am happy to know that i'm probably not the person that pops into others minds when someone mentions "whiny little bitch". That, my good friends, THAT makes me smile a little brighter.
So, to those of you out there that let a foul mood get the better of you, or chose to plaster negative vibes for the world to see (ehem... like on your facebook status....) i'd like to send you a little luv. Here you go:
i hope that brightens your day & makes you realize that just because some people don't do what you want them to do, or just because you may completely misunderstand the meaning of life, decency and compassion, or just because you may be unhappy with the way that things are going in your life, it doesn't mean that you can take a giant, undignified dump on the rest of us or things that we represent. ok?
Thank you for listening to my littel breeze. i feel better.