diary of a manic obsessive.


If you've been reading Spanky luvs it for a while, you'll probably know (or at least be able to guess) that i'm a pretty big fan of Brett Michaels.

If you use watch entertainment news, or even regular news, you probably know that B. Michaels suffered a brain hemorage after an emergency appendectomy on April 12th & has been in the ICU for a while. While in the ICU, he has also been treated for hyponatremia, a sodium deficiency that can cause seizures.
[eek! poor brett!!!]

His reps are saying (as of the most recent news update, from 3 hours ago) that things are looking up & it looks like he'll be able to rock again, sooner than expected!!!

my thoughts are with him. I hope that he can battle this, just as he has battled everything else!
... being diagnosed with juvenile diabetes at the age of 6, being the frontman of rock'n hair band, Poison, making a stellar comeback as a reality TV star, failing to find love on not one, not two, but THREE dating shows, and working for Donald Trump!!!
[this is just another sad, sad song for this cowboy...]

i'll let you know if i hear anything!

luvs it*


road map.

i'm here. i've been home, i've been lost (like usual), but i have high hopes that, with the recent free time, i may actually be able to plan a route to a better *me*.

Since i've been back, i've had to deal with a LOT of life's red tape. I've since, filed for unemployment, but won't know what the outcome is until i have my hearing (da da daaaa) on may 10th.
not gunna lie, i'm a littler terrified, bc i have no idea what to do if i don't get approved & i have no idea if i will get approved or not, since i was fired for breaking "company policy"

Has anyone reading this ever had to deal with filing for unemployment? advice?

i feel just awful that i haven't written in so long. i feel like this blog has become a best friend of sorts, & with that, my whopping 107 reader (!!!) are as well. I guess that makes me a pretty selfish & shitty friend, huh... :(

I'm also so sorry that i haven't been making the rounds to see how you have all been. i haven't read a single blog in SO long. God damn LIFE just keeps getting in the way of my means of escape!

i've been trying to get myself back on track, plotting the "rest spots", the important necessities & the tourist attractions.
[ya, i know, ever since the road trip, i'm on a bit of a "on the road" metaphor kick. haha. should just be a passing phase...]

it also doesn't help that my DAMN COMPUTER has been driving me up a WALL!
(does anyone else have a Dell Mini?) i luv the idea of it, but, one of the things i read about when i bought it was that the mouse pad thinger is awful & god damn that is SO true. i HATE it!!! But, like any laptop, it's not usually easy to have a mouse hooked up to it, bc then you need a mouse pad & a flat surface & blah blah blah, it's annoying.
but, because it's so stupid, it is unreal how difficult it is to highlight words in my text. i try to highlight one word & the damn thing jumps all around & selects other words or moves the highlighted text to another spot or some crap & UGH it makes me want to SCREAM!!!
that's why this post is written in such a boring way, rather than my usual overly annimated BIG words, different fonts, colours, yadda, yadda, yadda.

So, my hurdles, or "speed bumps" so far have been:

-filing unemployment.
-running out of money.
-medical insurance expiring at the end of the month.
   -get glasses [check!]
   -go to gyno for bc
   -go to dentist for filling & to have my gums looked at, AGAIN!
   -how will i afford my 'script without medical insurance?!
-having to move out of my parents house (blessing, but still stressful & annoying).
   -driving across the country again in a few months so i'll have my car in Cali?! eek.
-deciding if i'll have to find another job for the time being to make money to be ABLE to move.
-saying goodbye to my friends & family. :(
-organizing all my shit.
   -how the hell do i get 23 years worth of life from CT to CA!?
-figuring out how to use this free time to my advantage, & how to better myself with it.
    -aka how do i do these things when i don't have the money to spend on them?
-trying to get fit.
   -FINALLY made my weight goal. i've OFFICIALLY lost 50 pounds since February of 2009!
   -Yes, i'm very proud & very happy, but being a smaller jean size does NOT mean that your in shape. this butt is NOT cute & it needs to be.

&, most of all...

-missing the HELL out of Trav "Bazinga". It's only been a little over a week & i can't stand not seeing him every day. Especially after spending 11 days solid with him. Sure, we can get on eachothers nerves, but, HELLO, try spending 24 hours a day with ONE person for 11 days & NOT getting a little annoyed at them. We didn't fight ONCE though!

gag worthy moment of couple cuteness:
Bazinga & I have talked about what we think our "song" should be. not in like a super ridiculously serious way, but just because. it stemmed from me wanting to get a new ringtone for when he called...

i picked:

he picked:

i feel like the one that i picked is so typical, but considering we've been friends for 10 years & best friends for a long time before we started dating, & since we're currently living 3,000 miles away from eachother, i thought that it was appropriate, but, honestly, when he sent me his choice, it took my breath away. It was just so sweet that he'd think of that song. What do you think?

i miss you all so very very much.
i hope that you haven't all forgotten about me.

spread the word that Spanky is BACK & i will be updating, bit by bit, about my trip. i figure that it'll be easier for me to post, & easier for you all to follow, if i do it in chunks. maybe 1 post per day of travel?

i've been so down, but so hopeful. i really hope that you are all still there. please, let me know that you're still out there, reading my words.
send me a comment, or an email [spankyluvsit@gmail.com] - anything. just lemme know that you're out there!

also, about the 100 followers giveaway, i'm SO sorry that i never posted about that. As many of you know, it fell right into a super crazy time & i just never got a chance to post it! I will, i have all of the prizes. i'll post about it soon. i hope that i can get enough of my readers back into the circuit for it to even have any entrants!!!

a million hugs & kisses

luvs it*

ps: does anyone know why i am unable to post pics from a file on my computer?
i'm only able to do it from obnoxious ways, but i can't get them off my computer!!?
When i try to, & i click the "insert image" icon, it only gives me the options to add an image:
-"from this blog"
-"from Picasa Web Albums"
-"from URL"

any ideas?!


on route...

hello my pets...

i've missed you so. i'm currently sitting in a smoking lounge (holla) in the Salt Lake City, Utah airport. My flight leaves in about 30 mins, so i'm just going to have time to jot a quick "yo, homies" before i have to pack it in & head to my gate.

i hope you are all ready to hear from me LOOTS bc i have SO much to tell you all &... big news...

i got fired...


silver lining: loads of free time to write to YOU!

the blurb:
the trip was amazing. i've seen so much. it seemed like i was gone for months, even though it was really only 11 days. I've been through 13 states, taken hundreds of photos & spent WAY too much money.
I stayed in shitty motels, nice(r) motels, ate crappy food, ate good food, saw dessert, caverns, cities, & lots LOTS of highway.
Trav (Bazinga) & I did NOT kill eachother, contrary to popular belief. We didn't even fight! (bickering, arguing, disagreeing & annoying not included). I saw my NaNa Kaylee-Bear, met her BFer Chas & A Werner (a friend since middle school & Bazingas new roomie) as well as Chad (other new roomie & A Werners friend from collage).

well, i have to go over to my gate now.

miss you & i'lll be back shortly!!!

luvs it*


a letter from Spanky: drive...

my dearest bloggies,

i promise, i'll be able to update you all soon.

all i can say right now is, i'm ok, i'm in OK (haha), i'm head'n the rest of the way to Cali, i have a lot to tell you all & my fortune cookie tonight said:

"adventure is worthwhile, in itself."

a few things i've learned, on the road, so far:
-blueberry anything is delicious [blueberry smoothies or FroYo is always a good choice.]
-i have a serious problem with buying souvenir t-shirts in gift shops
-Zoos, Children's museums & anything of the like are hella fun, even for two grown-ups.
-Friends aren't necessarily those you always see, but those who always, truly SEE you.
[NaNa, my KayleeBear-face. You've been amazing.
Chas, you're wonderful, in every way. 
Trav-zinga, your patience & understanding has held me together, you're the best.]
-My tum does not agree with road-trips. i've been feeling vommy for days. [boo...]
-You never know what's around the bend, or what [proverbial] bug will splat on your windshield. No matter how hard you scrub, it isn't easy to wipe clean. [ya, road puns being used to the deepest possible extent.]

i luvs u all.
wish me luck on my current speed limits, & the speed bumps waiting for me at home.
for now, i'll just...
"hold the wheel... & drive."



Google, Kansas

visit Google yesterday?
notice it was called Topeka?

here's the awesome story behind it. i got a good LOL out of it, & i thought i'd share!

luvs it*


show off.

i'll be back soon, i swear...

for now, i'm going to be obnoxious & post these two silly photos of me & my Bazinga Babe while shopping for bathing suits yesterday,
[this is a silly shirt that i made him try on... hahaha]

luvs it*
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