life, luv, & the pursuit of blogginess

ya... you guessed it... it's probably going to be another downer from Spanky*...
i'm not sure yet, though. Right now, i'm just look'n at the blank box, waiting for my words, while my heart is rattling & my head, slightly spinning.

[but that might be because i'm still hungover from last nights bad choice fest starting off in Italy for vino, china for food, mexico for tequila & then, the dumbest thing of all, Jeruselum for a final kick in the ass, a Three Wise Men shot. why do i hate me so much?]

There are a few things that i have been meaning to talk about, but every time i click that "New Post" link, i lose the will to write about them. it's not that things have been bad, per-say, it's just that they haven't been great.

For the sake of time [there's only so much i can write in a half a lunch break], interest [there's only so much that you can possibly care to hear about my crap!], & my own sanity [it's never good to dwell... i hear...], i'll try to keep this minimal. only the necessary facts. short, sweet, simple, to the point.... o man, i'm already dragging on...

$$$:

i've been plagued by an unfortunate happening.
without getting into too many details, basically, i was affected by someone else's mistake, & now i'm literally paying for it. It's put a major speed bump, once again, in my steps toward a happy & productive life. basically, i'm $300 down, & feeling like my little pawn has been sent back to start [SORRY!]... i'm hoping to get everything worked out as soon as possible, but it just always feels like there's something in the way. I cross one thing off my to-do list, but, in the same breath, have to add 5 things to the bottom of it.

bloggie:

i need to know what to do, where to go, how far i can take this thing & basically, i guess i need my ego fed, my head inflated & a solid pat on the back to know everything is going to be ok.
how co-dependant am i?! wow.
it's true though. i feel like i hear some wonderful feedback from a few people, but i'm not sure about the rest of anyone. is there anyone else out there reading this?
Can you say hi, so i know?
say hi so i can stop being a droopy loser, perk up & keep on truck'n, err.... typing. whatever.

[to those of you that are always commenting, always e-mailing, showering me with unbelivably gracious compliments & luvs.... you're my heart, my drive, my rock, a million thank yous to all of you. you are how i know i'm not talking to a virtual wall]

Lent:

I'm not religious, i can't even spell "religious" without really thinking about it, & usually having to try again. I gave up something last year & treated it as a challenge. I don't know if that's like anti-faith, or whatever, but i figured it was a good enough reason to give something up.
Last year, i gave up fried foods & after 40 (46 actually, according to Western practice, which i think is weird) of craaaaaving french fries, i had one & it was... good... but i didn't NEED it.
I'm beyond thankful that i chose to challenge myself that way. It was the kickstart to one of the best things i've ever done, in my life. Now, almost a year later, i've lost a lot of weight, i feel fantastic, & i no longer eat massive quantities of crap food. [more on this in a later post. Feb 25 will be my one year since i started dieting.]
This year, i'm taking the same challenge, but instead of attempting to improve my physical state, i'm attempting to improve two other factors.

my lent goals:

give up cheese. [maybe, we'll see how it goes. one day at a time.]
give up on unnecessary spending. [really thinking about want/need ratio before making a purchase. do i NEED the $100 Red Suede SCHANNO pump with metal appliqué from Aldo, or do i WANT them? - want. do i NEED the $40 Artist Jeans in Medium Destroyed Wash from American Eagle, that i have a 10% off coupon for & that would be a solution to the problem that i don't have one pair of jeans that fit me, or do i WANT them? - need!]
give up on stressing over dumb boys. [i'm so sick of meeting a guy & then thinking about him constantly, wondering if he's going to call, wondering if i should call, thinking about what to text, wanting to see him, never hearing from him, meeting another guy & starting over. NO MORE! fuck it. from now on, i'm the playa, god dammit! these dumb ducks can come to ME! ha]
which brings me to...

my next post....

about, what else... 

a new duck...

 

luvs it*

Challenge: 365 Photos.

this is just one of the best things i've ever seen. i always end up thinking about it.

 

last year [December 1st, 2009] my pops turned 53. He is an amateur photographer & decided that he was going to take a self portrait, every day, to document his 53rd [technically 54th?] year. 

i want to do this, take a photo every day for a year & make it into a movie.

Does anyone want to take this challenge with me?

*Take one photo of yourself, in the same basic position, every day, for one year.*

 

ok, so i know that it's one hell of a challenge, & who knows where we'll all be in a year, but the good thing is, no matter where you go [unless you're arrested & in jail, or you go to the moon, which would be awesome] you'll probably be able to take one stink'n picture of yourself everyday.

If you're up for the challenge, pledge with a comment. if you don't think you can do a whole year [chicken.. braock, bru-bru-brauck - yes those are chicken noises] then, maybe commit to a month, a few months? between now & your next milestone?

 

[if you can] make a video of your photos when you're done. If you can't make a video, ask me when you're done & i'll [probably] make a video for you.

 

This can be an awesome thing to see how we all change & grow, day to day.

[see examples on "the q"...]

are you up for it?

 [ps: make sure to check 
"the q" for loads more spanky! 
overflow content on lots of posts!]

luvs it*

the challenge: damn it feels good to be a gangstah.

about 8, 9 months ago, a challenge was accepted.

[dum, dum, dummmm]

at my job, we base a lot of out informaiton off "the numbers"

[ya, like... most companies...]

we have these things, called "gig requests" that are the basic blood cells of our companies livelyhood.
last January [our busiest month for requests in the whole year] we relaunched the site with a new look. We called the facelift, ominously, "The Redesign". it was basically code for "hell on earth" within the office walls.
As sort of a "penis showing game", we came up with some milestones to keep our spirits high during the following months of answering awful questions and checking the Morning Report as soon as our computers were up & running.
Of course, being who i am, one day i stated that:

"if we ever get to 700 requests in a day, K [one of my two bosses, co-Pres & co-founder of the company] would have to gut a fish on his desk, alla Office Space"

he accepted.

[voila, penis showing game: activated. my job satisaction skyrocketed]

the only thing was, we were waaaaay far from the empire of 700 requests. We were averaging low 400's every day.

Other goals quickly followed;

• 750 would be a Wii for the office Conference/Break Room,  
• 7,000 members would be a Carnivalesque popcorn machine 
• (which would result in smoking out the office and having the fire alarm blaring while we stood outside and were glared at my the neighboring offices) and, the first goal to be met
• Champaign at 550.
  

Well, ladies & gents. it is my proud honour to announce to you all that, today, January 12th, 2010 the Morning Repost for yesterdays count read...

oh yeeeeaaaaaa

that means, in one miraculous day, we beat two records we've been working toward for almost a year.

K guts a fish 

[obviously there will be more on this later]

& Wii for the office! 

[can't wait to beat the boys in boxing & baseball, ha!]

luvs it*