rock bottom.

can this just be rock bottom?

can we all just let this be the low point?

i'm so embarrassed...

my car was repossessed...

we got so behind a few months ago when bazinga got sick, then roomie was robbed & i had to cover his 'scripts & part of her rent & my bills got put to the back burner.
i couldn't make payments on time & they took my car.

i can't believe it.

sometimes i feel like i can barely breath.

i luv it here & i luv the possibilities that this home has, but what else can possibly happen?

i'm going home for 2 weeks. i leave Jan 3rd. I just hope, hope, hope that i can come back with a rejuvenated spirit & can pick myself up, brush myself off, & make this life work.

i don't need bright, shiny things, i just want a bright, shiny happiness to fill our little home.

just, please, let's just let this be rock bottom. my hope can't take much more.

silver lining: i can't wait to see my family, my friends &, maybe even most of all, that dog, little Holly GoLightly pup whom i've missed so much i can't take it.


luvs it*

got my hurrr did!

i've been going through [inevitable] long hair withdrawal ever since i cut my long locks off in exchange for a short "sassy" bob-like cut.
not to mention bazinga isn't a fan of my short hair :(

I've been trying to get extensions, but they are HELLA expensive, even though Roomies [ex] friend was going to hook me up for about 1/3 of the cost, but never did it & now she's out of our lives [hopefully for good].
doesn't it suck when you think someone is pretty kool, then you find out they are full of shit & really just a virus? ugh. i'm so sick of that.
So, knowing that it would be a loooong time before i'd ever be able to afford real extensions... so long that my hair would probably be super long before i had half the money, i tried to find a nice clip in pieces. Even those can run you like $100. So i started searching on etsy.

I was hoping that i'd be able to find someone who would be willing to exchange a hair piece for something from my shop. No one wanted to do that... :(

Then i found Dawn. She has an etsy shop & she makes clip in hair pieces. I messaged her & asked about an exchange. She said YES!

I made her a custom dream catcher & she made me a custom hair piece!!!

 

cute, eh?! 

now i just need to figure out a way to make it work in more than just this one hair style!

I'm SOOOO thankful to Dawn for trading with me. I am also very happy that i thought to put the idea out there!!!

Maybe i won't be able to sell as many things as i want to, but maybe, just maybe, i can trade some more things.

I'd also like to put the word out to anyone who would like to host a giveaway from my shop.

I'm happy to give away a bracelet:

I can do basically any colour that you'd like, with or without accent beads (which can be either teal, red, black, silver or gold) & middle beads of the same.

If you'd like to host a giveaway, please let me know.
If you'd like to make a trade of anything in my shop, let me know that too, i'm happy to hear any offers!

(especially if i can find things for X-mas gifties, since i'll be BROKE this holiday)

So, once again, i want to thank Dawn, SO much & i want to ask that everyone take a look at her shop. She's new, but she was very sweet, a great communicator, and a luvly chick.

luvs it*

the desperate quest.

I need to find odd jobs or something.
I need to go home for Christmas & it's INSANE how pricey it would be for us to go.
I'd need a good, $1,300 minimum to make it work. That's before even thinking about buying any gifts!

I've been hoping to sell my items on my etsy shop, Twitterpated Pretty, my prints on Red Bubble, i'm even trying to get my sister to help me sell my books & some other things that i left back in CT to try to make some extra dough.

on that note:
Has anyone ever been a mystery shopper? I don't know how it works, but i know it's like, a thing.

JenBunny mentioned that there are blogs that will pay you to do product reviews. How do i get into that?

If anyone knows of any places to find freelance work, or venues to sell hand made work, or prints of my art, please let me know.
Also, if anyone wants to HIRE me for some freelance design work, or writing work, please let me know. I'm desperately trying to earn enough moolah to fly home to see my family & friends for christmas.

(of course, feel free to donate to the cause! hahaha or, ask me about advertising, if you'd like!)

i miss my family.

because i don't like to end on a sad note...

silver lining: i have new wish bracelets available on the etsy shop, & i believe that JenBunny (NovelistaBarista.com) will be hosting a giveaway for one of them soon!!!

luvs it*

challenge: help Spanky make some serious ca$h... [giveaway?]

hi!

i miss u... :o(

but, look! i'm alive & well! Here i am!!! [just took this pic! haha, don't mind our messy room!]

seriously folks... i'm sorry that i haven't updated in a while, but to be honest, i'm bug'n a lil bit... we're seriously scrapped for cash & i haven't been able to snag a jobbie yet.

What have i been doing with myself you ask?

well... i've been keeping busy making some luvly art.

I've been cranking out some wonderful [i mean... i think...] painted bottles.
i think that i can really make some money by selling them, along with my handmade dream catchers & my new luvlies, my paper lanterns.

So, i need to ask you all a HUGE... no, MASSSSSIVE favour...

i'm going to reopen my etsy shop,

*Twitterpated Pretty*

... would any of of you be willing to post a link on your blog OR buy a Spanky handmade luvly, or promotoe on your blog or anything of the like?
i'm reallly trying to make a go at being a paid artist, just for the time being.
I'd be MORE than happy to return the promo favour to anyone that has a shop & i'll also make a list of everyone who lets me know about the promotions that they've done, & be sure to return the wonderful favour with a goodie.

in fact, FUCK IT, let's make it a driving force... for the next month, i'll promise to do the very best i can to keep up with thr blog as well as all of ur bliggities & take a serious note of who are my loyal luvies. Everyone that promos me, please e-mail a link to

Spankyluvsit@gmail.com

so i can check it out, link it back & we can [fingers crossed] make a little web from all the attraction.
IF you promo or maybe the word is CONVINCE any one of your readers to buy something from my treasure trove, tell the buyer to add the message

"Spanky luvs [your blog name]" 

with a link to YOUR blog & i'll keep count.

the person who gets the most referrals by November 1st will get a package from me with a CUSTOM dreamcatcher, bottle & a lantern ON THE HOUSE.

yes, that's right people, we are taking "giveaway" to a while other, self promoting level.

hey, i'm not ashamed, i'm in SERIOUS need of the cash!!!

I REALLLLLY hope that you all are up for the challange.

i know i haven't been the best host lately... i feel awful about that...
seriously, i feel like i've been letting you all down for quite a while...

i miss you all so much....

i'm trying, so desperately, to get my shit together so i can be the *Spanky* you all know & luv.

help me with this & you will be rewarded.

comment on this post 1 time to be added to my "THANK YOU LIST", tweet about it [do people still tweet? or is twitter dying down?] for a check mark next to your name on my list, re-blog to get a star, link to www.etsy.com/twitterpatedpretty for an underline, get readers to "convo" me on etsy for a cute pink highlight on your name, etc., etc.,....

Seriously, if i can make some money off of selling my beauties, i would have NO problem devoting a few hours to make some thank you gifts for my luvlies.

i luv you all sooooo much, it's literally INSANE!

again, e-mail

Spankyluvsit@gmail.com

if you want a button for your blog, if you've added a link or a post, or if you can think of any other venues or ways that i should be promoting my "grand re-opening", OR if you'd like to work out a give-away on your blog with something from my shop [obvi we'll have to come up with how to do that in a way that i can make some dough, so i can buy some groceries...] PLEASE feel free.

make the subject line

"Twitterpated Pretty" 

so i know to look out for it.

hugs & kisses.

luvs it*
to the person

get my mind off my money...

I can't believe this.

I'm out w/ Bazinga for his birthday, yesterday, & after buying his bday breaky, i check my account, which i knew was low, but just wanted to make sure that we could go to GameStop, as planned, to get him a few games for a gift.

.....

-$26.00

ummmmmmmmmm... there was DEF supposed to be AT LEAST $150 in there, whaaaat the fuuuuck?!

I call my 'rents & it turns out that MY account has been overdrawn to provide funds for "a related account"... (thanks mom & dad...)

So, i'm out the $150 that they actually had to loan ME bc my goddamn unemployment checks aren't coming!

I call unemployment to try to see what the deal is because the last check i had gotten was on the 15th & i'm sitting there, penniless, on the 25th!

"I'm sorry, but it seems that your checks have been put on hold/ made void sue to your failure to appear at your Profiling Meeting. Please report tot he Danbury, CT office."

UMMMMMMM - i LIVE IN CALIFORNIA NOW!?!

WHAT MEETING?!!?

NO ONE EVER TOLD ME ABOUT ANY MEETING!!!!

"the aproximate wait time to speak to the next available representative is 44 minutes".

awesome, so i can wrack up my cell phone bill while i wait to hear that someone isn't giving me money to pay for it... on my boyfs bday, in the parking lot of a shopping centre... CLICK.

Now i have to figure out how to get around calling the GD unemployment office w/o having to use ALL my minutes & figure out WHY no one told me i had to go to some meeting! FUCK.

This whole plan of moving to Cali was all balancing on the fact that i'd have money coming in while i looked for a job in this crap economy!

---on a lighter side.. Our hometown friend B.Verb took us out for Travzinga's bday, which was SUPER sweet of him. We went to the Improv Comedy Club in Ontario, CA for dinner, drinks & to see Mike Epps.
it was awesome. We were LITERALLY in the FRONT ROW, my purse was sitting ON STAGE! I was nervous that we were going to get ragged on during the act, but maybe we just aren't funny looking? We got nothing :( I even told them it was Travzinga's bday, when i snuck out to go smoke before the show & after dinner. Nothing. :( poo on that!

We really WANT to go see Tom Green who will be at the Improv in Irvine (5 mins from our apartment) but who knows if we'll even be able to afford the $25 tickets. ugh. How sad. I can't remember the last time i wasn't able to throw down a measley $25 for anything!

i miss money. fuck.

silver lining: um... well, T & i had a pretty nice little "Party of 2" birthday party back home when we got back. Since i had no money to buy him a present, i guess, i had to let him unwrap me ;)

 

luvs it*

tik... tok....

unemployment hearing in 5...4....3....2.....

i'm freak'n out!!!

life, luv, & the pursuit of blogginess

ya... you guessed it... it's probably going to be another downer from Spanky*...
i'm not sure yet, though. Right now, i'm just look'n at the blank box, waiting for my words, while my heart is rattling & my head, slightly spinning.

[but that might be because i'm still hungover from last nights bad choice fest starting off in Italy for vino, china for food, mexico for tequila & then, the dumbest thing of all, Jeruselum for a final kick in the ass, a Three Wise Men shot. why do i hate me so much?]

There are a few things that i have been meaning to talk about, but every time i click that "New Post" link, i lose the will to write about them. it's not that things have been bad, per-say, it's just that they haven't been great.

For the sake of time [there's only so much i can write in a half a lunch break], interest [there's only so much that you can possibly care to hear about my crap!], & my own sanity [it's never good to dwell... i hear...], i'll try to keep this minimal. only the necessary facts. short, sweet, simple, to the point.... o man, i'm already dragging on...

$$$:

i've been plagued by an unfortunate happening.
without getting into too many details, basically, i was affected by someone else's mistake, & now i'm literally paying for it. It's put a major speed bump, once again, in my steps toward a happy & productive life. basically, i'm $300 down, & feeling like my little pawn has been sent back to start [SORRY!]... i'm hoping to get everything worked out as soon as possible, but it just always feels like there's something in the way. I cross one thing off my to-do list, but, in the same breath, have to add 5 things to the bottom of it.

bloggie:

i need to know what to do, where to go, how far i can take this thing & basically, i guess i need my ego fed, my head inflated & a solid pat on the back to know everything is going to be ok.
how co-dependant am i?! wow.
it's true though. i feel like i hear some wonderful feedback from a few people, but i'm not sure about the rest of anyone. is there anyone else out there reading this?
Can you say hi, so i know?
say hi so i can stop being a droopy loser, perk up & keep on truck'n, err.... typing. whatever.

[to those of you that are always commenting, always e-mailing, showering me with unbelivably gracious compliments & luvs.... you're my heart, my drive, my rock, a million thank yous to all of you. you are how i know i'm not talking to a virtual wall]

Lent:

I'm not religious, i can't even spell "religious" without really thinking about it, & usually having to try again. I gave up something last year & treated it as a challenge. I don't know if that's like anti-faith, or whatever, but i figured it was a good enough reason to give something up.
Last year, i gave up fried foods & after 40 (46 actually, according to Western practice, which i think is weird) of craaaaaving french fries, i had one & it was... good... but i didn't NEED it.
I'm beyond thankful that i chose to challenge myself that way. It was the kickstart to one of the best things i've ever done, in my life. Now, almost a year later, i've lost a lot of weight, i feel fantastic, & i no longer eat massive quantities of crap food. [more on this in a later post. Feb 25 will be my one year since i started dieting.]
This year, i'm taking the same challenge, but instead of attempting to improve my physical state, i'm attempting to improve two other factors.

my lent goals:

give up cheese. [maybe, we'll see how it goes. one day at a time.]
give up on unnecessary spending. [really thinking about want/need ratio before making a purchase. do i NEED the $100 Red Suede SCHANNO pump with metal appliqué from Aldo, or do i WANT them? - want. do i NEED the $40 Artist Jeans in Medium Destroyed Wash from American Eagle, that i have a 10% off coupon for & that would be a solution to the problem that i don't have one pair of jeans that fit me, or do i WANT them? - need!]
give up on stressing over dumb boys. [i'm so sick of meeting a guy & then thinking about him constantly, wondering if he's going to call, wondering if i should call, thinking about what to text, wanting to see him, never hearing from him, meeting another guy & starting over. NO MORE! fuck it. from now on, i'm the playa, god dammit! these dumb ducks can come to ME! ha]
which brings me to...

my next post....

about, what else... 

a new duck...

 

luvs it*

want it: Junior Drake "Farrah" Fuchsia Leather Satchel

 

$149.00 

this bag is only available for 1 day, 16 hours & 20 mins (as of 6:40pm EST on Jan. 13th)

on

 

want it, but i'm not spending that kinda coinage on a bag!
but it do...
luvs it*

fyi deals: express

oh yaaaa!

personally, i wish that the Seam-Back Denim Leggings were on sale, but they're not... poo... but there's a ton of good 'ish!!!
luvs it*