last night on the road

Well, i couldn't write last night because the damn [&, overly advertised] "FREE Wi-Fi" in last nights hotel, wasn't working, UGH.

last night, i was in Albuquerque, NM.

What else happened yesterday... hm... well... i woke up in Oklahoma, left Kaylee with a sad face for both of us & hit the road. On the way, I...

saw, what i swear was the beginnings of a Tornado!!!

[this is a real pic that i took w/ my iPhone, but the pink streak is the reflection of my shirt & i def did fuck with the colours & whatnot... but.. SEE THAT FUCKING FUNNEL!?!?! AHHHH!]

 

then, while, i was hoping to get the fuck away from the 'nado asap... my gas light went on!!! So, i stopped at the next exit & found myself surrounded by desolate creep-town, with abandoned motels & a few non-working gas stations. Lucking, i found a working one, but was thruoughly freked when i got out to pump gas & heard crows. i looked around & it was like i was in a fuck'n Hitchcock film.
[ok... so maybe i'm exagerating a littttle bit...]
the Raven's creepn around me squak'n "nevermore", stole the words right out of my mouth. nevermore!!!! that place was terrrrifying! hahah BUT, i was on the road again soon, on my way.

[photo found here.]

I got to Albuqurque, got lost, got off exit 158, missed my turn, well actually, just took my turn too early, so i ended up getting BACK on the damn highway, GPS took my to the next exit (159), but then put me BACK on the highway, where i got off the OTHER wrong exit (157) & did the whole thing again, but the other way. Needless to say, by the time i got to the hotel, i was annoyed & SO FUCKING HOT i was ready to kill someone for a nice ice cold red bull, which i'd run out of.

I get into the Quality Inn & ask the [very nice] guy at the front desk if he had an available single smoking room.

"i'm sorry, but we are all booked in our single smoking rooms."

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

"Do you have ANY smoking rooms?"
[i know, you may be thinking "what's the big deal, just get a regular non-smoking room"... well... when you're a smoker & you drive across the damn states & it's hot as fuck outside & you don't know the area... you want to be able to smoke without going out into the blazing & somewhat scary parking lot!!! so, no, a non-smoking room just won't do.]

Finally, he says "actually, i have one double smoking room, but we weren't having anyone stay in it bc the last guy smoked a lot of weed in it & it stinks"...

..."i'll take it"

"are you sure?"

"ya."

"ok... i'll give it to you at a [phat] discount."

"thanks brotha!"
[ok, so i didn't say "brotha"... but, i shulda... that dude was such a bro, he was kool. good luck to him with his schooling which he chatted to me about for a while while the "paper work" went thru...?]

so...

today, i drove... drove... got gas.... drove... went to Wal-Mart, got a knee bandage for my poor sore knee from driving, got some Subway, some spray tan (so i look beautiful tomorrow when i see Travy-Bazinga-babe... IF it doesn't sweat off... ew) & a trash mag.

what did i learn from that trip to Wal-Mart? hmm.. well, pay attention...

**If you are in aa car, full of all your shit, with CT plates, & you find yourself in a Wal-Mart parking lot, eating a sandwich, reading a magazine, with the car NOT running... you are a SITTING DUCK TARGET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!**

no, nothing scary, but a dude did come up to my car window & knock on it, take a turquoise & coral necklace out of his pocket & begin to show it off. i shook my head (with a mouthfull of turkey on whole wheat subway) waving my hand "no, no thank you... goodbye.. no..." & he (who looked like a bad version of Luis Guzman - i luvs me some luis, but this guy was NOT really him!) put a "thumbs up", flashed a grin & said "ok! You have a GOOD day!" - so, i put the sandwich away & PEACED OUT!
 

Now, i'm in my hotel, watching TLC when i should be taking the bath i ran like an hour ago (but "Toddlers in Tiaras" is just so wonderfully awful & how can you NOT watch "I didn't know i was Preggers"?!)

I'm glad i got to update everyone on my crazy last two days.

Tomorrow, i have 7 hours to go until i'm in my new home. i'm scared, but i'm excited. i hope Trav's mood improves though, bc he's been sunburnt, bored & cranky. He's constantly updating me on the horrors of our new place & new roomies... awesome...

i REALLY hope that he's over exaggerating....

more tomorrow, if i'm not too tired, but def more soon!

 

luvs it*

day 3: fever dog.

Woke up in Cuba.

Cuba, Missouri, that is...

drove thru the rest of Missouri & made it to NaNa Kaylee-Face by 5:00!

"Spanky, why did you just post that RANDO clip from Almost Famous?"

Oh! I'm glad you asked...

TRIVIA: What is the name of the band in Almost Famous?

Answer: Stillwater

I'm in Stillwater, Oklahoma!

I'm staying in Stillwater (home of Kaylee, Oklahoma State University [go Cowboys], & Eskimo Joe's - burger joint!) until Tuesday morning, when it's time for me to HIT THE ROAD [jack]!

[these photos are from my last visit,

on road trip 1. 

i now have short hair!

more on that lata!]

off to watch tv, eat FroYo & crash out.

 

luvs it*

day 2... a rough one

i'm so tired.

i drove 12 hours today.

too tired to write about it.

found photos that relate instead.

we'll call it a "photo essay".

[sorta.]

woke up in PA, drove thru Ohio, Indiana, Illinois & now i'm in Missouri, 3 & a half hours from Oklahoma, 6 hours from NaNa Kaylee-bffer-face.

g'night.

luvs it*

"on the road again..."

I'm back on the road, head'n to Cali.

my car is all packed & i made an ok dent in the trip today. (7 hours today...)

not gunna lie, i'm a little scared. I'm alone in a hotel in PA & it's time for bed.

I'm going to do my best to update you along the way, but given that i'm on this journey alone, i'm pretty burned out at the end of the day.

Saying bye to my family has been really rough.

i had sushi with lil sis (Em Butthead) last night after my wonderful hour long "de-stress" massage & steam showed (um, can we say "heaven"?!). This morning, my Pops had to go to work, so i had to say goodbye while i was still groggy eyed. I've been an emotional wreck & started bawling first thing in the morning. Good way to start a stressful day, eh?
I'm gunna miss him something awful. :(
[Daddy's Little Girl?]
My Ma was so sweet, she helped me pack the rest of the insane amount of my life into the Versa, looked up hotels for me on the way (ever after the multiple times i told her that she really didn't need to do that bc i wasn't going to know where to stop until i was ready to stop...), & even gave me a family heirloom, a beautiful Opal ring that had belonged to her g'ma. it's gorgeous, huh?
  

 
i lost my shit completely when i gave my last squeeze & kissies to that dog, my little adorable Peanut-Face McDoggie, Holly. I can't help but feel so guilty about leaving her. People understand why you leave, pups don't. She'll be sad & confused & it makes me SO sad to think about it. :(

Well, after eating last resort Domino's for dinner, i'm feeling a little vom-tastic, so i'm going to head toward some, hopefully, sweet dreams.
[even tho i'm admittidly terrified to be in a hotel alone... & ya, i def double locked the door & put a chair & the ironing board against it! hahah]
  

  

I'll give you more updates on my 2nd tour of America soon, i promise!

 

luvs it*

home sweet future home...

I flew to Cali on Wednesday, May 19th, to find a place for Trav & I to live.

I've been here a few days & in that time, we saw three awesome apartments that we can't afford & a room for rent that we can... that was fucking awful... in a tiny ass place with a married couple... & their screaming 1 year old.... in a shitty naighbourhood... in a crappy area.... kinda close to Compton... NO THANK YOU!

Then, we saw some more shitty complexes in relatively terrifying areas... then we saw two other really nice ones, that we can't afford....
sound frustrating? ya...

exhausted, tired, & on the verge of tears, we came back to the apartment we've been crashing at, to find a Craigs list listing of a room for rent in the SAME COMPLEX!!!

This morning, we walked the 20 seconds to the other apartment to be greated by a nice guy (matt?), his girlfriend Jennifer & an adorable 3 month old Huskey pup (Grays? Graves? i'll get it eventually).
The room is sunny, big enough for us, with a mirrored wall of closets (holla). $700/month (split between the two of us, $350) with an additional $30 utilities. (cable & internet will probably take it to MAYBE $75?

I'm happy to announce that, on the first of June, Travis will be packing up his things & moving over to the new place. I'll be back on the road again (eek!) on June 4th & will be driving across the states again... (double eek!) ALONE (EEEEKKK!!!) to join him, in our new place, by June 10th.

I'm freaking out.

honestly, i'm scared. i'm really, really, really, scared.
What if he & i don't get along? What if i can't find a job? What if i don't make any friends? What if i hate everything? What am i going to do without my girls? I'll miss AmeCakes & JenBunny so much it'll kill me.

No, i have to embrace this new life. I have to make moves, literally, & take it as it comes.
I just hope that we aren't making a mistake. This is completely the wrong way to move in with someone, i know, WE know that. I don't want to suffocate him, but i don't want to feel isolated, either. I'm scared that we were so caught up in the whirl-wind of us even getting together, that we rushed it.

[we haven't even said the "L" word yet...]

i do know one thing. i can't wait to be done stressing, done packing, done thinking about what i need to do next. i can't wait to get SOMEWHERE & just... BE.
I want to get back into a routine. i want to be able to find a job, that i actually like, write on my beluved & missed bloggy.

i can't wait to get back to my own little reality. I miss you all so much. i have no idea what's been going on with anyone & it makes me feel awful!

i can't wait to tell you all about everything. maybe i should do a time line post to just get the basic facts about my drive & what's been going on?

a quick few tid-bits of my last days in Cali:

-went to P.F. Changs. Had amazing Crab Wontons. I'm a fan.
-went to the Cheesecake Factory. Had phenom "Crispy Artichoke Hearts" with a Lemon-Garlic dipping sauce, edamame, "Bistro Shrimp Pasta" [Crispy Battered Shrimp, Fresh Mushrooms, Tomato and Arugula Tossed with Spaghettini and a Basil-Garlic-Lemon Cream Sauce.] & "Wild Blueberry White Chocolate Cheesecake", all washed down with Strawberry Martini [made with Pearl Vodka infused fresh Strawberries..]...

i know... right? holy SHIT.

-Saw "Date Night" with Steve Carrell & Tina Fey. laughed my pants off!
-Went in the hot tub last night w/ Bazinga-face. it was too hot, but i liked it.
-Watched "The Men Who Stare at Goats". awesome. just freak'n awesome movie. i really wanna watch it with my dad before i leave home. he'll luv it.

i luvs u all so much. thank you for sticking with me.

luvs it*

tik... tok....

unemployment hearing in 5...4....3....2.....

i'm freak'n out!!!

short nails

how is it possible that there is so much to do?

i've been sitting on my ass for days (with the exception  of going to Bamboozle on Sunday with AmeCakes), on the computer, listing things for sale, e-mailing with potential buyers (selling my beloved Cabrio), comparing prices, looking for apartments, looking for jobs, looking for my mind!

my nails keep breaking: sign of stress.
the ones that don't break are peeling, which means, i bite them. ugh.

what do i do? i have no money, but all i want to do is get on a plane & fly to Cali to see him.

he's become my muse. He tells me i'm his. We write about eachother. it's very Old School. i feel like a couple in courtship. it's cute. we're silly. we're inspired.

i miss him.

i started writing my post about Day 1 of the trip. it's about half done. i'll finish tomorrow. i hope.

i hope you are all still there. don't give up on me. i'm here, i swear, i'm just working on it.

luvs it*